I know, I know, I know... I never post!
Life's too hectic, too much washing, cleaning, making lunch, doing too much for someone else, somewhere in the process I lost myself. What is it that I like again? No idea.
I used to go to shows, I used to love music and know stupid little facts about bands I loved, bands I didn't love, but most of all I knew music. Now I feel like I have no idea. Who knew Jake Grigg of SWN and Shaun from the Matches had a new project called Maniac? I should of known that!
I used to have a love for drinking Smirnoff vodka and listening to music in the dark, I haven't done that in over a year and haven't even had a drink since March. Maybe thats something to be proud of, the not drinking but it was something that I enjoyed, something that became a part of me.
I used to dress up, like put actually put some form of effort into how i looked but because I barely go out anymore I don't bother. What's the point when your just going down the road?
I have just have no sense of who I am. Or who i'm meant to be.
I miss you, Amy! You poor thing. What changed so much? *hugs* I hope you're okay! It sounds like you need a bit of a (or a BIG) holiday and some time to yourself to work things out.
ReplyDeleteI felt like that a few weeks ago. Getting a little better again though.
ReplyDeleteTheres a letter in the mail for you. Hope that cheers you up a little x